Internships

So, even though the job I currently have counts as an internship for school...it's been my job for the last two and a half years, I've just been getting more responsibilities as the semesters have come and gone which is why my job was accepted as my internship.

I started out as an assistant coach, to head coach, to boating assistant, to border line assistant boating coordinator (been learning skills/doing heavy shadowing during work). For two years, I've worked at the lake. For 8 years, I've participated in programs and classes on the lake (I started rowing for Tempe Town Lake when I was 12). So you can imagine how trapped I feel sometimes.

Don't get me wrong, I love my job. I love the people I work with. I love the opportunities they give me and the memories I've made with them and the memories that I have yet to make with them. But I'm getting tired of Tempe. Most of my friends went to out of state colleges, or at least ones that allowed them to be more then an hour and a half from home. I've seen countless people come and go from the lake and yet I remain.

I applied to a couple internships that I posted about earlier, and did not get any of them. One did call me back, but I soon found out that it was not what I originally thought it was and I had to turn it down. I guess I'm just upset that I'm still waiting for my turn to leave. Now that I didn't get an internship over the summer that would allow me to leave for a couple months during the off season I have to wait a little longer until I graduate.

I graduate in December, and my parents want me to go straight in to my Masters but I don't think I will. I'd rather wait a semester and see if I can apply to a university in another state. My boyfriend graduates next May, and I plan on seeing where he ends up before I make any head strong decisions. If we both get jobs that we are very passionate about we have already agreed that we will go our separate ways... but in the mean time we'll see if either of us gets a job and if one of us a job than the other will follow.

I don't want to do my masters because then i'm stuck here for another year and a half and have the possibility of having my boyfriend, yet another person, leave the lake before me...and that just upsets me.